MY not so SECRET HEARTACHE!

Often I think that I hide my feelings very well and that I hide the fact that certain things bother me a lot and just let people think that they aren't affecting me with the things that they say or do but it does bother me and lately a lot of it has to do with marriage. I get that I am getting older and that I look like I am a strong independent woman who doesn't need to be looking for  MR RM but seriously its not because I haven't tried to find him!!! I have prayed and fasted to be able to know if I need to start thinking of a life without a husband. I feel as if all my friends are getting married and are trying to start families and I am just starting my life I just started school last week and I feel amazing to finally be going for my dreams but I still have this tugging at my heart and that constant feeling of being alone. I know I am not alone because I have a wonderful Father in HEaven who loves me very much and who guides me everyday to know what I need to do. I however still feel like part of me is missing! I feel like my eternal companion is like lost haha SOMEONE GIVE THAT BOY SOME DIRECTIONS TO MY HOUSE!!!!